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I Know

Fri, 29 Jul 2011 20:37:33 +0100

I know what she has been through! I know what lingers inside! Just like I know know she is the perfect girl the only girl who is more like I! I'm not talking about being just like me! I'm talking about how she see's life and how her heart feels! It's just like me! But the pains, tears and the dark clouds of the past keeps the walls in her heart strong! I truly wish she would just break them down! I know she has the strength and I know she wants to, but the fear of the past keeps overpowering! I love her more then I love my own life and I will continue to love her in such a way! I just hope that one day her eyes will open and she sees that! I know that once she does those walls will weaken and they will come tumbling down! When that day comes we will have the rare Fairytale Relationship! I love so much and I know she loves me the same! I do admit I'm not perfect! I do have faults and I do have things about me that maybe some may not like! But I'm me and I will always be me! We are different in some ways! She likes more meaningful casual movies and I like the fantasy action type of movies! But we both like horrors! So I take that as a plus! And other things like intimacy! I like to be more frequently intimate and she is more mellowed out! Don't get me wrong she is very intimate! Just not as often as I! But even though we are different in some cases we very much the same! We both take out our frustrations out on each other for no reason at all! We both say dumb things out of anger! We both are damn good parents and w love our children! We both will put our kids before us! We both know how harsh life can be! We like and dislike a-lot of the same foods and drinks! I have seen the REAL Kathleen (aka PK for Princess Kathleen). I just wish, hope and pray that she will come out to be with me again and this time STAY! But nether the less I love PK and I will always love PK! I know that our lives will be glorious and beautiful! I know that once we get Committed our love will be so strong, our trust for each other will be so sure and our faith in each other will be so real that the angels of heaven would be jealous! I tried to be but what I see people want me to be and I can't! I have to be me! PK is the only person who knows who I am, understands it, and excepts it! The only problem we have thus far is our past! My past still lingers and gets in our way! PK's past has put so much doubt and fear in her that she's scared to be her! If PK can forget her past and open herself up to my future she would be so happy that the only fear she would have is leaving it all! If I can find a new path for my lingering past then I maybe able to show more focus on my greatest future with PK! Let's just hope and pray that this will come to be!
!!Thanks for Reading!!
James

How Happy Am I today

Fri, 29 Jul 2011 19:59:49 +0100

I am so Happy with James he means so much too me. Sometimes we have our ups and downs but who doesn't. I have so much respect for him that It doesn't even seem real that I am with someone that finally cares about me and never hurts me. I thank him so much! I am finally free he got me out of an abusive relationship, he practically saved my life and children's life. The man i was with before him treated me like I'm no good, he abused me and called me names. He always found away to downgrade me. He has held a knife up to me and threatened my life and he has jerked up my baby. Sense I have been with James my kids and I are much more happier and my life has changed. I am going back to school in the fall to take Property Management. I cant wait! I am a little nervous but I just got to take that deep breath and walk forward into the light. I am so glad that I am out of that trap and living a better life with James and our kids. I hope to one day marry him because I love him so much. I've seen his pain I've seen his tears and I knew how he felt being with his ex and now I see him smiling and happy. Everyday and every minute I want to live my life with him and his kids. My mom always told me the lord works in mysterious ways and she was right because the lord brought James too me and I pray to the heavens above for making him and his kids mine and two hearts becomes one and James and I are ONE!.
Yours forever Kathleen

First Love

Sat, 16 Jul 2011 23:38:38 +0100

We first fully fell in love on March 09, 2011. We have been together ever since. We are great together and we are truly happy and in love. We both have gone through troubles in our life and we both understand how one another feels. Kathleen first started falling for James on February 25, 2011. James starting falling for Kathleen on March 02, 2011. James loves Kathleen so much he bought her a Promise Ring that says J&K 4E His Word Her Promise. That ring is not an Engagement Ring nor is it a Wedding Ring. That Ring However, Ties our love together. We live by that Ring. We are both meant for each other, we see a lot of things eye to eye. As time passes by we have come to learn that we are to each other what we have been praying and wishing for. Everyone will soon come to know that James Brooks and Kathleen Hawkins are and forever will be two pure and true hearts beating as one.